`Rawr.

u irresponsible JERK

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

7:30 AM

i hate you man... u irresponsible JERK ...all because of one plant u wna sack my maid??? no way... especially when she is with me for 12 years!!! alright? sometimes i feel that im closer to her then to my own mother... now u r sacking her??? ***ssobbs...*** i hate you!!! now, you wna throw my precious lil darling dog... which i love it more than i like my bro... no way man... YOU were the one who bought it... and now u are the one hu wna throw it... do you have your conscience? your responsibility? its all gone gone gone...im totally disappointed in u... didnt they say always think twice... especially when you are buying a pet... every pet has its own life... every living things has life... if you are now discarding it... dont you think u r too cruel? do you still remember what they do in spca? wat they do to unwanted dogs? they kill it. can you bear it??? imagine it crying and with a "BANG" it fall to the ground, from then on, it will nvr stand.. he will be going to the netherworld... just this..can u make sure that your conscience will be clear? no right??? u r killing a living thing indirectly... you will be BANISHED to the 18th lvl of hell... IHATEYOU!!!

AND PEOPLE WHO IS CONSIDERATING WHETHER TO BUY A PET, THINK TWICE...

not again???

Saturday, January 14, 2006

2:01 PM

okaes... today have higher mother tongue...so i went for lunch... and drag lena yanjun with me... hahaha~ den fukuan came along after i bought my lunch kenkiong appeared again... hais... pathetic... den he wna tickled but his hands were too short... haha... after lunch i went to buy drinks and inorder to buy, i walked a shorter route which had to pass him... without knowing again... he tickled... den i walked a big round to my place to find that, he was at my place i stop at a distance away from him den i threatened to pour ice lemontea on him if he dun wna stop.. hahaha... but he still wna and i was afraid too... so i seek for help... i scan through the whole canteen and saw yuki... and just nice he also turned at my direction.. so i signal to ask him come over... so i ask him to help me, not to let him tickle me!!! ***aargh... den somehow kenkiong hit him or something and yuki wna fight back... but only playplay la... i think??? den after that we were late for hmt... and so we ran... and the end... hahas....

it seems like the first time in co.... im awkward...

Friday, January 13, 2006

1:22 PM

well oh well... being persuaded by yanjun to go co... and obviously.. ms moo and mdm lee... hais... so **tadar~ im here... back in that room... the music room which wasnt sound proof... the one which hold my past memories, happy, sad, excitment,nervous and embarrassment... i took my 1st heavy step in... ppl was like..."zhaojie, long time no see le hor?" den i was like kinda ashamed...so, i find a spot which wasnt really crowded and sat there... studying HISTORY den here comes my sectional leader... " wa... hao jiu mei jian... jiu zhi dao ni hui hui lai... suo yi mei you xuan xin de soloist..." and i only look up at her... duno wat to say... ppl hold high expectations on me and yet i did this to them...eva since 25 august 2005 i did not appeared infront of their eyes... did not touch my instrument-erhu... until today... did u think i wanted this??? nonono!!! obviously not... ohwell dont really wna dwell on such unhappy happenings.... so what can i do? i was like "?????" ok... then i didnt noe where was the room to practice... so i followed some so-called "juniors" and went in with them... and... anna and weitong was like practicing something i didnt hear before... something which i never touch... and finally i only learn a small lil part of it... ***arrgh... how am i gna catch up? im way backbackbackbackback!!!! hais... im so sad to say this... but i have to... im SLOW!!! crycrycry.... i MUST buck up... i think??? so should i go for dazu on tues??? ***ponder*** maybe...? but maybe not....

hmmphs....

1:20 PM

ok well... im now currently "stephanie" and stephanie is " zhaojie"... yanjun is now "lena" and lena is now"yanjun"... cheam huh? lols... so "zhaojie" went to buy lemontea... and "yanjun" and i went to help her finish it... cause she only want the ice.....den i also help myself with one of it... after that they were like tickling each other...and soon they targeted me... ohman... i was so pathetic... ok... i jumped around with an ice in my mouth... hahas... den suddenly they stopped... den fukuan and kenkiong came along den when i was catching my breath from all those silly jumpings... kenkiong tickled me!!!! ***aargh... so i jumped like nobodies business... den he tickled again... i didnt expected a guy to tickle me... so i wasnt cautious of him... until then, i was... den i went up for co....

im ccrazy...

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

7:26 AM

oh man.. im crazy in my 5.17 post... alittle too agitated when i wrote it.... hahas... went to primary school today to do banner for brownies... this year's theme is "discover your potential: unleash your creativity, live out your dreams..." this year theme larr... den i was supposed to rite out the words... aargh... so diff lorr... hais... den raining so heavily i was with pauline kimberly[chung cheng main] erica karina[st nic's] xin min[pierce] xin yun[nanyang girls high`] amanda[pei chun pri] shermeen[beatty] and me... the whole god damn school was only occupied by us... den as it was raining they started talking about ghost stories... so scary larr... about their school all sorta things... aiyo, pathetic lorr... somemore so cold... really sent shivers down my spine man... hahas... but its ok larr...lovl... den we finished... **tadar~ den we were like walking on the path to mcdonalds... den pauline's slipper stuck in mud...and kimberly laughed after that her shoe spoiled... so it was like ''hu ask u laugh at me'' and i and amanda was like trying to fix it... and there is something i really would like to recommend... buy RIPPLES slippers... they are god damn good larr... so hard to put back... after much tryouts we got it all done... haha... pro huh? but by that time, my thumb is already numb... i cant feel a thing... hahaha... ^^

gget llost!!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

9:28 AM

yyucks!!! dun be so disgusting!!! i dont like you!!! so what if you are in acs barker... so what if u r in a boys school... u think i care? no way man... nonono~ i hate DESPORIANS yyucck... **ppuuii** gross...

im no pushover

9:17 AM

im no pushover... nonono...

im not a student which u can discriminate

im not a girl which u can call names...

im not a girl which u think i am

im just me...

im complicated

im fragile

u changed my life...

u placed the word discriminate

in my dictionary

so i shall put it to full use

ON YOU

it's u who placed the phrase make fun of

in my dictionary

so i shall put it to full use...

ON YOU

i shall learn to use the words

bully, confronting, hitting, scolding,rebelllious

all into full use now...

i covered the page with paint

i wanted a new life

but

you are the one,

who peeped under the page to see wat it is

you are the one,

who took the pen and write down wat it is

you made me remember the words,

which i hated most

which i once love...

dont come crawling to me

saying you are sorry

its all too late

TOO LATE

nothing can change my hatred

for you...

you made my life miserable

so i shall repay..

you lightened up my life with my once loved

bully,confronting,hitting,scolding,rebellious

so i shall repay you with this...

change now or its too late...

my last chance for you...

just to show you,

im no pushover...

fcuk u...

9:03 AM

wth la!!! asshole!!! *aargh!!! i cant stand it any longer... WHAT THE FUCK!!! i spend so much time on that sickening content page for MRS TAN and what i get back? thinking that i had done so much, i tot she would praise me but instead "why is it not printed out? how are they suppose to write for the whole year?" and i said "my printer spoiled" "i want u n class committee members to redo it" swaying the paper like nobody's business like as if it was sort of rubbish...what the hell la... i snatch the paper from her hands... smoke were seen on the top of my head... i was so god damn bloody angry!!! tears welled up in my eyes... i was filled with angriness, desperation, and sadness... but i hold back my tears...i did so much... inhaling chemicals that was given out of from the marker for afew hours, when online asking classmates for ideas, this was what i get??? it was lucky enough i did not appear on the newspaper headlines.. 13 year old girl died of inhaling too much chemicals from the marker... so god damn angry.... felt like tearing the paper infront of her face... i controlled... den after her lesson i crushed it... ppl ask me why... i told them... what for??? i did it for her, since she doesnt appreciate it, i wouldnt wna look at it, with that i crushed the paper and into the dustbin it goes... ask me to DESIGN a content page but she didnt ask me to print... instructions werent clear and she discriminate my content page like nobody business...i hate her man... she sux... think it is so easy? do it yourself la u 4 eyed freak... i hate u to da core... nothing can resolve my hatred for YOU.

history rep...

Saturday, January 07, 2006

5:15 AM

oh man...im elected as the history rep... when im already the eng rep!!! do i look so responsible to teachers??? no way man...den she like nvr wait for my ans den say ok for me... i bloody stunned la!!! aarghh...but lucky lena help me... hahas.... and i con her... she was like, ''did i tell them to hand up the assignments today?'' i said no when she just told me yesterday... haha.... too bad... hu ask her stm... lalala~ i did that to help those lazy bums like me lorrs... hahas...

pathetic...

Thursday, January 05, 2006

7:58 AM

pathetic... real pathetic... im elected as the class eng rep... well alright.. at first i tot it wasnt that tough... den now i noe i haf to collect compositions.. comprehensions... and holiday assignments [i haven even do]... it still ok... but worst thing is... i have to design a content page for the whole class... tough huh? wat should i do if they dislike it? and the deadline? next mon... *faint* hais...

lorve

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

4:29 PM

to me...

love is important

where do you get someone who...

laughs with you when you laugh

cries with you when you cry

huggles you when u need a hug

goes out with you when you want company

it's fate which brought us together

it's fate which makes us find each other

it's fate which will make us love forever

3hundred 6ty 5days

8thousand 7hundred 6tyhours

5hundred 25thousand 6hundred minutes

315hundred 36thousand seconds

everyday everyhour

everyminute everysecond

i am your gurl...

i lorve you...

miissiin yyouu...

4:17 PM

i wrote something specially for you...

i love you

yes i do

i will be with you untill the end

on the day i met you

i know that we can be together

and never leave each other

i truely love you

you dont have to be perfect for me

because im not perfect enough for you

i know that this fairytale will last long and forever

i did not regret knowing you in the first place

you walked into my life

and gave me the happiness i wanted..

without you,

my life would be imcomplete

you gave me everything i wanted

im in love with you before i met you

it seems like i saw you in my dreams

when i finally saw you

it seems that im waiting for my whole life

i know that you are more than i wanted..

this is why i love you..

i just want alittle hug from you

and i would be happy for the rest of the day

loving you is one of the greatest thing i ever had in my life

i love you...

subject teachers... ^^

4:05 PM

subject teachers!!!

form teacher:mdm loh...
science teacher:mdm loh
maths teacher:mr sia
chinese teacher:mr kim
english teacher:mrs tan
literature teacher:mrs lena tan
history teacher:mrs nathan
art teacher:ms yoe
d&t/homec teacher:mr leow/ms sim
pe teacher:ms teresa lim/ era sidhu
cme teacher:mdm loh
music teacher:mr lam

tadars~** this are my teachers for year 2006` !!!

so far apart...

8:27 AM

we are always so far apart from each other... care to come to singapore for a visit? when you do... remember to look for me will you? i dont think you will though... so far so far... i need to sit at least 5 hours of plane just to reach you and plus journey on the bus.... at least 3 hours... we are thousands of kilometre apart from each other... when can we be closer to each other? only heaven knows... hmm... its so great for you to experience 4 seasons....haii... and u speak in fluent chinese while i speak in broken chinese... we could hardly communicate... remember the first few emails you gave me? just to talk to me you used english... although its atrocious... now its getting better...u sacrificed... im sorry... ohya and when you called me in your hotel during your stay in singapore we couldnt communicate and we had to use numbers to say alphabets... tough? ya.... but all is over... because of you i decided to brush up on my chinese you are my motivation...life is never perfect without you...

i gave you my anger

u quickly ask for my forgiveness

you said i was cute

i asked myself not to listen to your sweet talkings

but i cant

i really cant resist your sweet talking

they really melt my heart

i love you

u love me

lets love each day more and more

u look so cute and handsome

the smile on your face

gave me a smile in my heart

i felt so good to see you smile

because i love you

i will never let you go

unless you dont love me anymore

but if i really have to

i will, because i just wanna see you smile

i promise you that you will never be replaced...

do i really love you or what? are we too young and immature to talk about such things? i dont care... i will just follow my heart... ^^

oh my god... *help me!!!

6:54 AM

yiippee! todays the first day of school... lalala~ i get to see my frens teachers and all sorts of crap... now im permanently in 2diligent... its not so bad afterall just that... i feel that im gonna do badly this year... goodness gracious me....u gotta ask me y...haha... u will be bloody shocked!!! lol... firstly maths and science is the key subjects to get into a good class next year and this are one of my lousiest... so i need a GOOD teacher inorder to make me score alittle higher and change my sickening attitude towards this subjects... thats not the key point now... the key point is... my teachers! my maths teacher is... mr sia... science teacher... mdm loh...[my form teacher and is a new-comer] can she teach well? i duno...my english teacher is mrs tan ph.... oh god.... am i dying or wat... lucky mr kim is my chinese teacher... yahoo*~ im lovin it... lolx...or im gna flung the exams terribly....haha... oh well... cant blame them right... so... GOD please help me change my attitude towards studying and make a miracle happen...lalala~ am i praying in my blogg or wat? anyway wat am i? i go to temple...church...etc.. but i haf a statue at home... its somehow related to buddhism i guess... oh well... wat am i? cheamology... lol... anyway... let me summon all gods to pray for me...[wow... am a big shot huh?] haha...fun ya? lol... i wont be greedy just make me pass with flying colours will do... lalala~
**may ALL gods bless me** haha...

well wat can i say? this is me!

he called!!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

3:58 PM

finally!!! ive waited so long and finally he called... lalala~ but i didnt answer... hahas... u think i didnt want to? i was like craving for it!!! but my fone was with my mama and she didnt pass it to me... hhmphh! waited so long just for his calls lorx... oversea call lorx... hiyah!!! but my fault... who ask me go play poker den pass everything to my mama... **sobbs** lol... dunoe whether he will call tonight...*ponder* just browsing and saw something and decided to rite it here--->

haiz... without even realizing... unwittingly...

unknowingly...im beginning to look forward

to your mails... what am i doing? i used to

have a sense of security and belonging, but

that day, when i looked at you, i began to

feel that i was losing you,losing myself...

in the beginning.i acted strong-headed and

ignored you,but now at this particular moment

i wish to see you...love i painful enough, what about

keeping a crush in secret and darkness???

it is enough to kill me...

im really troubled lars... i duno i like you anot lors... i can rite so much but y... cause you will never get to see it.. haahs...

^^ **~troubled...

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